So here is the honest truth: I have a problem with procrastination. It is a debilitating one that I feel has prevented a lot of positive possibilities/outcomes in my life. I didn't clean my kitchen for an hour that day I posted. Instead I fell back into my negative habit of putting it off and finding something else to do.
But, it is 2010, a new year. According to Chinese astrology it is the Year of the Tiger. For me it is a year for "knocking down walls/barriers," walls and barriers that I, myself, have constructed. I'm tired of my own debilitating behavior. Do you ever get tired of your self? Ever tried writing a letter to yourself?
I wrote a letter to myself about a year and a half ago. I wrote it as though I was writing to a friend/mentor. I mailed it and then when I received it I procrastinated in reading it for about a week! Even though, I knew what it said! How's that for being a chickenshit and a procrastinator?! Ugh.
So, then I wrote back to myself - about 4 pages: a very clear, direct, hard hitting, scathing, honest reply. Do you know what my excuse has been during the last year and a half - for not getting a "handle" on my life? 1) That I'm a single parent and that all my energy is focused on being a good mom and taking care of the day to day responsibilities. 2) That once I fulfill those duties I don't have the energy to work towards my goals. WHAT A LOAD OF CRAP. Crap, crap, crap!
I am embarrassed to admit how much time I spend watching tv during the week.
So, today, I AM going to clean my kitchen for 1 hour.
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